My Lyme Story
Summer 2003
My name is Alexandru and I am the owner of this website. I’ve put this website together to bring more Lyme awareness and not only, but share my story with fellow suffers, educate the doctors , patients and the people that are in danger of contracting Lyme Disease. I finally received a proper diagnose after battling a bunch of debilitating symptoms for over almost 8 years now. I have had the faith to go on with my life even if my life quality has dramatically decreased. Despite the pain and debilitating symptoms I never gave up.
No one really believed what I felt, and what I felt all these years is just pure pain. I have been many times to the point where I considered my life useless and went through terrible bouts of anxiety and depression but then again I just had to move forward because there is no other way out but in.
As an young adult, I’m 28 right now, I should have a lot of goals and plans for my life, however the life I dream of at the moment is not exactly achievable, at least it’s not as easy as many would think it is. Due to my anxiety and depression and the pain that I experience on daily basis, it’s pretty hard for me to get out there into the society and live a normal life even though I would want that from the bottom of my heart. Whenever I feel better, I enjoy talking long walks, going out with my bike and hanging out with my friends. I have tried over the last 2 or 3 years to go out as much as possible, enjoy nature, spend time with my friends but as we all know – it just isn’t as it used to be before. Lyme disease affects people in so many ways – both psychologically and physically. After years and years of receiving a myriad of diagnosis and trying to find an answer, I am finally on the right path. It’s hard to get a proper treatment in the U.S.A, imagine that in Romania it’s almost impossible – most doctors here don’t have an idea of what Lyme disease is and certainly many of them don’t even admit that Chronic Lyme Disease exists.
I’m personally dedicated to learn more about Lyme Disease, Lyme Treatments and Natural Lyme Protocols.
There is no 100% accurate Lyme Disease test and it’s not easy to get a proper diagnosis either – The lab tests come back negative even if people are infected. Thus, a negative Western Blot (or any other test) does not mean that someone is not infected (this is the biggest concern for all of those people out there that are bed-bound and still struggling to find an answer to their “mysterious illness”.
New Year’s Eve 2004
I have over 100 symptoms (probably had more along the years) but my main concerns are the debilitating headaches (tension headaches), pain at the back of my head, back pain, severe fatigue, muscle and joint pain, loss of balance, muscles spasms and twitches, dizziness (the dizziness is very similar to the dizziness that you’d have when you’re drunk), “brain fog” and an overall feeling of being sick, depersonalization and derealization - “feeling a stranger to the human race”. And for those that still don’t understand the severe symptoms that Lyme Disease patients have on daily basis or don’t believe Chronic Lyme exists please bare in mind, that what Lyme patients are going through is pure hell, and you wouldn’t want to go one single day in their shoes – not for one day. (No, it’s not a mental illness, it’s a chronic and severe spirochetal bacterium infection that affects your mind, body and spirit).
In 2004, when I started feeling ill, I didn’t know what was going on with me – I though I was losing my mind – basically that’s what I felt back then. The scariest thing was that I had severe derealization and depersonalization, severe anxiety and panic attacks that just came out of nowhere. It felt so unreal (I was trying my best to ignore the bodily pain) but everything seemed so unreal. I was so agitated, I thought I was losing my mind, I though I was going to die. Until the bouts of panic attacks started, severe muscle twitches all over my body, the dizziness and loss of balance that I could barely stand up on my feet, sudden-onset paralysis on the right side of the body, unbearable headaches that I have never experienced before, I felt as if something was eating my flesh away from inside of my body, I had chest pain and, shortness of breath, pins and needles throughout my brain and entire body, electric current going through my legs all the way up to my head. (I could go on and on with the symptoms that are literally over 200 that I have experienced so far). I ended up in the ER several times and the doctors would all only say I’m suffering from anxiety and that I’ll be fine.
Doctors have been telling me on and off that it’s all in my head, but something was telling me that something is really wrong with my body. How stupid was I to even consider wasting my time with dozens of doctors that were not able to make me feel better. I never stopped researching and I am thankful that I am finally on the right path.
My diagnoses so far are Chronic Sinusitis, Pansinusitis, Spondilosys, Poli-Arthritis, lumbar discopathy F1-F2, sacroileitis, non-infectious encephalitis, conjunctivitis, general anxiety disorder, depression, O.C.D, ADHD, TMJ, mineral deficiency, chronic fatigue syndrome (CFS/M.E), fibromyalgia, candidiasis, epstein barr virus (EBV) and other human parvo viruses, bartonellosis, and finally Lyme Neuro-borreliosis.
I clearly remember that when I left Romania in 2004, back in that very day I was feeling very healthy. A few days later, when I arrived in Italy (about 10 days later) I started feeling severely fatigued, agitated, anxious, confused, nauseous, had a buzzing sensation in my entire body, I also had a shaking sensation that I never had before, felt like I was falling off my feet and I felt like faint very often. These were just some of my initial symptoms that all came suddenly, seemingly out of nowhere.
I thought I was going to die, nothing made sense, I was so tensed that I couldn’t talk, I didn’t know what was happening to me, everything around me seemed weird: The people, the cars on the street, everything seemed weird, it’s a sensation that I cannot clearly describe in words, but honestly I thought I am going crazy, but was trying to hang in there wishing that all those symptoms would pass. Prior to this – I was a “social butterfly”. Everyone that knew me, asked me if there’s something going on and why did I suddenly become so quite, everyone was asking me what’s going wrong and I didn’t really know what to tell them.
I phoned my brother and told him that “something is not right with me” – something terrible is going on with me and I don’t know what it is.
However, none of the symptoms went away, in fact they only got worse. One day right after I finished work, all of sudden a severe tension headache and cervical pain hit me out of nowhere, with a sudden loss of balance, terrible nausea, I quickly became very anxious, also had a feeling that I would faint any minute and I also had vertigo. I immediately ran home, I don’t even remember how I got home and told my uncle to take me to the emergency room.
When I arrived at the hospital, I vomited in front of the hospital, I guess the car motion made me even sicker. (I also had severe car sickness as a kid, but this time it was all different, I felt as if I was breaking apart with every bump in the road).
2006
At the hospital, they put me on a CT scan right away, they did some blood work and the next day they told me that I will be ok, and they don’t yet know what’s going wrong. Seemingly I did not have any tumors or anything serious going on with my brain so I was happy that there wasn’t anything serious, yet I didn’t know back then what was going to experience in the following years. They had me pay around 1000 euros out of pocket since it was a private clinic, so in that moment I decided to come back to Romania and seek further treatment for my condition here.
I never imagined back then that 8 years later I would still feel sick. Between 2004 – 2012 I have seen numerous doctors and probably spent over $40,000 out of pocket. I have been called a hypocondriac, by my family, by some of my friends and even by doctors and nurses in the Emergency Room.
These are just some of the symptoms that I have on daily basis.
- Fatigue (daily)
- Low grade fevers, ‘hot flashes’ or chills (hot flashes almost daily)
- Night sweats (rarely)
- Sore throat (daily)
- Swollen glands (sometimes)
- Stiff neck (daily)
- Migrating arthralgias, stiffness and, less commonly (daily)
- arthritis
- Myalgia (daily)
- Chest stiffness, pain and palpitations (daily)
- Abdominal pain, nausea (don’t have abdominal pain but the nausea comes pretty often)
- Diarrhea (occasionally)
- Sleep disturbance (I either sleep to much or don’t sleep at all)
- Poor concentration and memory loss(daily)
- Irritability and mood swings (severe, daily)
- Depression (daily)
- Back pain (daily)
- Blurred vision and eye pain (daily)
- Jaw pain -(daily)
- Testicular/pelvic pain
- Tinnitus (rarely but when it comes it hits)
- Vertigo (daily)
- Cranial nerve disturbance (facial numbness, pain, tingling) (daily)
- Pressure Headaches (severe, daily) – Cluster Headaches once in a a while.
- ‘Lightheadedness’ (evere, almost daily)
- Dizzines (daily)
I believe that Lyme disease is NOT a rare infection in Romania, it’s just that people haven’t heard about it, the laboratory tests are also too expensive and unrealiable. The treatments are very expensive so the Lyme infected people will end up getting a wrong diagnose and yet get treated for completely different health issues for years and even decades in some cases, without knowing that they’re actually suffering from a complex and systemic infection.
My symptoms always change, from day to day, from month to month, sometimes they completely go and sometimes they hit even harder, it’s a weird pattern going on. I had times when I felt better, especially when I was taking care of myself, doing a lot of exercising, running, swimming, biking and had a proper diet rich in fruits, vegetables and lots of water. I have had a period where I felt better (I though I was completely cured) – 2 or 3 months after I started feeling ill, but then it all came back again and never felt perfect since. Now I am in a relapse.
I haven’t been able to work since May this year. I have been working online for the past few years (it’s hard but I had to make a living somehow) eventually since May this year I wasn’t able to work anymore and definitely now when all the symptoms are even worse it’s even harder for me to work but I have started two new projects online that I’m working on with small baby steps and hopefully it will materialize sometime in the future.
At Queen Mary’s Palace and Garden Balchik, Bulgaria
My family doesn’t really understand my condition and never has, but at least they’re supporting me as much as they can so I am pretty lucky from this point of view. Hopefully I am planning to start picking up my “health” and start working full time on my new projects.
Sometimes, I cannot function – with so much emotional and physical pain, it’s simply impossible, but I do hope that we will all get better soon with a proper treatment, diet and lifestyle change. My heart goes out to everyone that is suffering from Lyme, I have watched numerous videos posted online by Lyme patients, and I can see the pain that they’re enduring, that I am enduring and that you are enduring and it’s not easy to go through this especially at my age when our energy should be going in a completely different directions. However, as they say, if you don’t have the time for your own health, then you’ll have time for illness.
No one can understand what this illness does to our bodies – like you’re shaking on your own feet, like the ground is moving under your feet, you feel scarred as if you’ve seen the wolf in front of you, pain and needles through your body, feeling like laying in bed the entire day, a brain fog that is so severe that sometimes I just don’t understand what people are saying (I don’t comprehend words properly), sometimes I read a book but I don’t understand it. I remember the last time I was in the emergency room I was feeling so sick that I couldn’t comprehend what the lady next to me was saying – she was trying to explain how she went through several strokes but I simply couldn’t put her words together. Despite the brain attacks she went through she seemed so much happier and healthier than me.
Despite how sick I was, I had to run around the hospital hallways, up and down from the 10th floor to the first flood several times and nobody was giving me too much attention. To top it all, I was called a hypochondriac and been sent home with the same old diagnoses. The neurologist even told me to see a psychiatrist (a friend of his of course) that claimed to be able to help me out. At this point I couldn’t take it no more because I was barely hanging on my own legs and the brain felt like it would crack any minute.
It’s unbelievable but yet, yes the borrelia bacteria can affect many parts of our body including the joints, heart and nervous system, digestive system and in some cases, sadly, it’s irreversible.
My heart goes out again to everyone that is fighting Lyme Disease and hope they’ll find their way to recovery. A healthy person would not be able to go for five minutes with the pain and all these symptoms that we’re experiencing on daily basis without going nuts, let alone living with them daily.
Yet WE have learned to cope with them and fight for our health and life. I hope that everyone suffering from Lyme and co-infections will get better and get on with their life and enjoy life as much as possible.
Sincerely,
Alexandru
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Your story touched me; I have been told by countless doctors that persitent Lyme disease is in my head DESPITE positve bloodwork by the strictest of U.S. standards. My official diagnosis was 2.5 years ago. I do not know how long I have had Lyme. I got a huge rash a few months before diagnosis. Considering that I developed a double rash, perhaps the EM was reactivation. The feeling of wobbling, dizziness, and extreme headaches…You described the experience perfectly.
hi Sarah,
It’s pretty likely that a lot of Lyme patients are send either to the psychiatrist, or another physician. (we all know that).
If you have a Lyme diagnose you should immediately see an LLMD if you haven’t already done so, and start a treatment as soon as the bacteria doesn’t do more damage to your body.
It’s quite sad that a lot of Lyme patients are treated this way, and Chronic Lyme isn’t recognized as a real illness, whereas we’re all suffering in silence.
Hugs
Alex
Yup. I’m another who never saw the clssaic rashor other symptoms. I think the stats on that that about 60% or more never do. It’s important to note that ticks areoften the size of the period at the end of this sentence,so they are not seen. I have also heard that it is actually24 hours for them to transmit and they transmit other tick infections as well, not just lyme. Thank you for putting the info out there. With a bit moreupdating to your video with these facts would be great.
Hi Alex,
I’m romanian like you and suffered for the last 7 months with same symtoms. I’m living in UK and have been told that everything is in my head. I had to travel to Romania and get tested at Fundeni and another private lab. I’ve got the treatment now and I’m on the right way.
Are more doctors in Romania who know about Lyme and know to treat it than in UK. I also believe you have good chances to treat Lyme in Romania without having to go to Germany.
I’m 7 days into antibiotic treatment and my headaches are gone, I can sleep but still have weakness on my left arm and leg, shakiness, a bit dizzy and breathing problems.
I’ll be happy to help you with more details if you need. You have a doctor even in Constanta who treats Lyme. But the blood tests have to be done in Bucharest – Fundeni Hospital.
All the best!
Pulling a nymph tick with tweezers is IMPOSSIBLE That is how I got ienfcted.It is impossible not to leave the head in. These are the size of a poppy seed for Goodness sake get hold of a proper Tire Tique or tick puller, otherwise you run a serious risk.I’m not sure about the 36 hours either, the bacteria seems to be present in the tick’s saliva I followed medical advice (so called!) and used ether, tweezers and that’s how I got ienfcted. Please learn by my mistake!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x9dsmFVPDqs
hi Alina,
I hope you’re feeling well.
I know that in the UK there aren’t any LLMD’s.
I’ve been finally diagnosed with neuroborreliosis, I want to do some follow up tests for co-infections before starting an antibiotic treatment.
Alex
ick, i’m sorry. i live where lyme disease was desroviced. people get it ALL THE TIME here. once the medication has been taken, doctors generally assume that it’s gone, but if you’re sticky achey, you might still have it. it doesn’t always die. if you don’t have any problems after it’s gone, they let you go on your merry way. however, there was a girl in my class who went through all the treatment and still nothing, so they gave her a central line (yes, needle in arm, tube-wire fed up into her heart) and put her on IVs EVERY DAY for a month. then they decided it might not be lyme. this is a tricky disease. it’s very individual, sorry, so i can’t really tell you anything for sure. the severity ranges almost randomly, but most of the time it just clears up with the first round of drugs. keep taking them as directed!good luck and do whatever you can to avoid ticks in the future!
They are not the same thing.Vulvitis is a condition of inilmamatfon of the vulva of a female. It may be caused by or related to dermatitis, eczema, infection by bacteria, viruses, or fungi, or an allergic reaction. It’s not an STD.Genital herpes is a sexually transmitted disease (STD) caused by the herpes simplex viruses type 1 (HSV-1) and type 2 (HSV-2). Most genital herpes is caused by HSV-2. Most individuals have no or only minimal signs or symptoms from HSV-1 or HSV-2 infection. When signs do occur, they typically appear as one or more blisters on or around the genitals or rectum. The blisters break, leaving tender ulcers (sores) that may take two to four weeks to heal the first time they occur. Typically, another outbreak can appear weeks or months after the first, but it almost always is less severe and shorter than the first outbreak. Although the infection can stay in the body indefinitely, the number of outbreaks tends to decrease over a period of years.They have different treatments. One has no effect on the other.
Fascinating reading all of this! I had trelibre IBS for 7 years going to the toilet 10-12 times a day if i didn`t take loperamides from the doctor, they told me 2 try a wheat free diet however no effect! i had trelibre chronic itching the past few years that is only slightly relieved when it flares up by antihistamines. i get acid reflux, gas, bloating etc and after a weight training injury since october ive had numbness in hands and feet and chronic upper limb pain in both arms.
@Ebru
A lot of Lyme patients suffer with IBS and Chron’s disease.
Luckily some of them manage to eradicate their symptoms and live a normal life.
many patients with Multiple Sclerosis are also testing positive for Lyme Disease.
Buna, am vazut ca nu mai este pagina ta pe facebook. S-a intamplat ceva cu tine? Da-mi, te rog, vesti despre tine.
Gina
Alexandru, I am so so sorry! I watched my daughter go through this, and it breaks my heart.
I would love to send you her story, and our success against this vile disease!
I understand if you don’t want to give me your email address, but if you do, I have so much to share with you!
Strength in numbers, my friend in Lyme!
Healing hugs to you from Idaho, U.S.A.
Alicia
Mom of Sara (also you can find her stories on YouTube)
Hi – I would be glad if you would send me your daughter’s story and will be happy to publish it on our website.
It is a struggle, we have to stay strong and never give up.
Happy new year!
Email us at lyme@lyme.ws
Alex
Dear Alexandru, I know your pain all too well. I’m terribly sorry you have had to go through this. I’m 37 and have been diagnosed for a year & being treated. I have chronic Lyme disease with a co-infection of Bartonella. My once busy active life is at a stand still. I know exactly when & where I contacted it but never once thought Lyme. I ignored everything,made excuses and pushed on until I couldn’t anymore. I know I can get some things back but not all. I am not curable. That doesn’t mean terminal, it means one form of Lyme in my body will not go away. It is true that this is a life changer. Any cold or flu can put me in bed for days. I’m a wife, mother & stepmother. The guilt alone is devastating. I feel guilty over not being up to going for bike rides & other things. My husband & children get to watch this once very active woman shrivle away.The woman everyone knew, the never stop moving & doing,always ready to run & do whatever & never stop, is now lost. I have limitations?! What? You’re kidding me right!? No. The woman most people couldn’t keep up with now spends more time in pjs than I care to admit. I wish you the best. Thank you.
hi Sarah, I’m sorry it took so long to reply, I didn’t feel too well after finishing my round of antibiotics, and felt a lot of the days bed ridden. It’s the headaches and dizziness that I am struggling with on daily basis, terrible fatigue and brain fog, still have mild shooting pains, weakness in my legs.. etc.
I’d love to hear from you.
Alex
Alexandru, Unfortunately you are not alone. Even in western countries it can be a lonely, isolating and non-supportive illness. Good for you for speaking your truth, it will help others
I do not have insurance and have paid for everything out of pocket. I was also mis-diagnosed for 20 YRS!!! But that is a whole story in itself. Please look into ART ( Autonomic Response Testing) Advanced muscle testing…..you may be able to train yourself to do this. My practitioner gets the right dosages and herbs/medicine this way. I am not doing any pharmaceutical antibiotics ( one, I couldn’t afford them and two, I now am so glad I didn’t as they kill the goo too). It seems a big part of Lyme mis-treatment is not “killing” the co-infections first. I killed 8 co -infections until my practitioner went full force with Killing Lyme and Babesiosis. I use medicinal herbs, supplements and Rife machine ( via true rife) as my treatment and am finally getting better 
Best to you! Linda
Hello Linda,
This is Jennifer from the Kaplan graduation. We walked in together. can you please email me.
Thank,
Jennifer
hi Linda, sorry for the delayed reply. I just finished my first round of antibiotics, and to be honest with you now I felt a whole lot better while on antibiotics. The bad news is that all symptoms returned just 3 days off treatment. My logic is telling me that the infection is NOT the main problem in Lyme Disease (some European studies show that over 50% of the population carry one or more borrelia strains in their bodies) .
Like many naturopaths and alternative medicine doctors, I tend to believe as well that the infection is not the real culprit, but the methylation (detoxification pathways), the lowered immunity is the second problem, the sedentary lifestyle, stress and the toxic environment. ( I could easily add a few more to the list but these are ok for now
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I completely agree that antibiotics just can’t be used forever since they can induce other illness and yes they kill the good bacteria too. Don’t afford a rife machine right now but I would be happy to try one as soon as I can afford a good one….. I do believe in natural healing…. but just testing the waters with antibiotics for a few more months. I am also dead broke since I cannot work too many hours, I work from home anyway and earn very little, so basically spending $1000 every two months on antibiotics is a HUGE financial effort for me, that I could no way afford in the future.
Hope to hear from you Linda!
hugs
Alex
I am so sqqorry to hear your story but unfortunately it is so similar to my story and millions if others! My out pf the blue symptoms hit hard and progressivly kept getting worse and with new symptoms everyday 7 years ago. Happily, after iv antibiotics and this amazong product line of liquid supplements, I have my life back! I was in a wheelchair and couldn’t walk! Today, I can walk again, talk again and the list goes on! I still faithfully take my liquid supplements everyday, FAITHFULLY because without them, I could go right back to wear I was! These “as I call them” miracle supplements have saved my life and I will forever take them! The scientist who developed these products is a genius and I owe him my life! My very good friend/ angel who has ALS introduced them to me because she firmly believes she is symptom free now from her deadly disease! Seeing what they are doing for her was all I needed to be convinced to try them as I had already tried everything else under the moon! I thank her and the scientist of the company for giving me my life back! The name of the company is “SISEL”and I take the” Triangle of life” and two other pill form supplements daily. If you want to read about these amazing products you can check them out in my ” angels” website : carolmccracken.mysiselpro.com Happy healing! This can be your year back to health too! I wish you a great year ahead! Xoxo
You described me just about perfectly. I had it for at least 12 years before I was diagnosed. I found a dr. who went to a conference on Lyme’s Disease. She called me on a Saturday and said she knew what I had. I was to meet her at her office first thing on Monday. That’s a 4 hour drive and I’m sure you know what that feels like.
They drew blood (9 vials) and sent them in for an IGG, IGA, Eastern Lyme and Western Lyme tests. Mine came back VERY positive. I had PICC lines (Peripherally Inserted Central Catheter) They put one in my elbow that went strait to where the Aorta attaches to the heart. I had them changed as they would wear out. Eventually I had had 3 in my right elbow and 2 in the left when they put a port in my chest.
When you have Lyme’s disease in advanced stages the antibiotics makes you feel like you truly dieing. Its called Herking named after the dr. Herkmier that found this. As one of the spirokeets bounces on its way out it bounces on other receptors and causes even worse pain. they had to take me off of the meds a few times because my body was so full of Lyme’s disease that killing it off was killing me. The Lyme’s Disease had gone through the blood/brain barrier. In other words it had gone into my brain and I had Lyme’s Encephalitis.
I am not taking antibiotics anymore but I ended up in an electric wheelchair and told I wouldn’t walk again. I don’t accept things like that. Two years later I walked across the living room to my father. That was my gift to him. I started using forearm crutches. Then about 4 years later I heard about these shoes called Z-Coils. I now walk unaided besides an arm through my husband’s arm.There is a spring in the heal that shows. It is adjusted so I don’t lean and fall over.
I still live in unimaginable pain that only you, Alex, would understand.
I am like you. Give Up is not in my vocabulary.
I design Jewelry and try to give more and more to Lyme’s research. Partly because it almost killed 2 of my 3 children. They were young enough that they healed faster and I stood my ground and demanded the proper tests. One still got Lyme’s Encephalitis and was in the hospital within less than 10 days of finding the Tick. They checked his spinal fluid which came back positive.
I pray you can get the help you need. If you have any questions, feel free to e-mail me.
Good luck, Gwynette.
I will tell others of this website
I’m glad you have had remission. In almost 25 years I had 1, 10 day remission.
Hi Alesandru,
Well done for not giving up! We have to stay as positive as possible. I’m much older than you, didn’t have a diagnosis for 10 years, when I found a LLMD here in England. I’ve had to do a gradual treatment, starting with herbal tinctures; on antibiotics for last 5 years, I’m beginning to have improvements. You might know that in England all private Lyme specialists have been stopped from treating the disease, so we patients have to guess what to to for ourselves. If you can afford it, a caveman diet & the right supplements helps a lot with die-off effects. Plenty of info & support on CPnhelp.org. Cpn = Chlamydial Pneumonia (one of the co-infections) It’s a huge website; many people there have Lyme as well as Cpn. Best place to start is Antibiotics (abx) & All Supplements Protocol.
Wishing you well.
Yours warmly, Clare.
god bless you all,
Thank you so much for sharing your story and making this website for all to see. Your story is sooo incredibly similar to my fight with lyme and many many others. I am so glad you took the time to write this and create this website. People so desperately need to be informed and educated on Lyme disease. It baffles me that it such a HIDDEN epidemic. So few people know about it. What saddens me the most is how many people out there who are endlessly suffering and miserably struggling day after day with no knowledge or direction of them even knowing that they have lyme. Ugh. Makes me sick and sad to think about. What is good though is that if more of us, like you, that have Lyme speak out and share our stories and experiences and knowledge, have a voice, loud and clear, take a stand and educate and spread the word, we can help so many others out there who are in the depths of the darkness it puts over you. So I want to thank you so much for writing this. I can’t tell you how much I relate to it all and have experienced so much of the same. Keep fighting the good fight my friend. Stay strong. Stay positive. And take care of your self. God Bless You.